Originally, I would use this Neo to watch videos. I have recently decided to give up on all forms of video watching. This includes, but is not limited to, YouTube, Netflix, Movies, Video Games, Social Media, TikTok etc. It’s really important that I stay away from video watching of all forms. It’s not healthy for me to watch videos. While it’s the easy way out, it’s not the way I am going! Hell no. My life is too valuable to be wasted away in front of a television or computer screen. I have actually fucking work to do in this world! So that’s the emotion it brings up in me, it can make me angry, when I think back on the countless hours wasted upon a television set, or computer monitor, doing who-knows-what.
Choosing to instead, focus my energies on reading, journaling, blog posting, in my spare time (which is the majority of my time these days, as I work part-time, remotely) will actually produce positive results. It’s not easy. I never said it was going to be. It’s going to be a tough battle to face. An uphill battle. Most people, are drowning in social media, constantly using it all day, left and right. Most people are drugged up to high end as well. The pharmaceuticals industry, numbing all of my closest ones, it can be really disturbing to see how the know you are meant to love you in this world are in-capable of doing so. They’ll say it alright, they don’t show it that’s for fucking sure. It’s a cursed world, I am telling you. It’s done that way for a reason though. “It doesn’t have to be this way” is a mantra that I could use. I know for sure I am not going to take the easy way out, and abasement myself into their world. I am not like them. I would rather be John a thousand times over than go back to the feelies. That’s what it is. Read “Brave New World” if you want an understanding of how bad things are. That’s why I am taking this extreme approach, towards distancing myself from ALL forms of social media. ALL forms of passive-consumption of media. Videos are DESIGNED to be passively consumed. Same with scrolling, the whole idea is to PASSIVELY consume it. While, when one reads, they can interact with the media, and re-read something “do I actually agree with that?” Or “hmmm I am not sure if I agree” I HAVE NOTICED MYSELF DOING THIS. THIS IS NOT SOMETHING I WOULD DO WHILE CONSUMING VIDEOS. So again, not to see unhinged on here, I just need to express this somewhere, and I know it’s not a good idea to discuss this with anyone else. If I were to tell, anyone, in my life about my decision, maybe like 3 people in my life would agree with what I am doing. Most would be like,,, “BROTHER WHAT ARE YOU DOING????” Because they see my decision as a critical assessment of themselves, and you know, as much as I want to be self-righteous, it’s not worth it. It’s not worth being that adversal to the people in my life, until I have built up on my own self defenses.
So again, I can understand this is very intense, very intense content, I am still going to post it though, as my interpretation of the truth thus far must be spoken into existence. This is the best way to do so. The principle, so within, so without, I am not sure if it applies here, I know I am in a vulnerable situation, where something could stir me back into social media, or back into watching videos. I must have “constant vigilance” as mad eye moody once said. So within, so without, if I were to post on social media, my extension I would consume on social media, if I were to post blog articles on my website, I would just start reading blog articles. I know, I know, that’s not universal. It’s not universally true. I am sure, that if I were to post, in a different medium, than I would be able to avoid that medium. I would just want the people who consume my content, to consume it in the way that I consume my media. I did decided to delete my YouTube Channel. I’ve done this a few times, and I know that it’s just time to really do a do over, and take this seriously. This is serious work. This revolves around the future of my own well-being, and I know that watching videos has stalled me as an individual. I know that I will march forward, and do so by posting more on my website. So here we go, I will post this now.
Best,
Aidan Hellrigel
Deciding To Quit TV, Movies, Social Media, Music, Etc.
I have finally deleted my social media again.